late night talks

I've been up for the past three hours talking with my roommate Varia. I've liked her since she moved in but when we got to talking tonight I found out that we have a lot in common. We have similar personalities & outlooks on life. It was actually really good to talk to her. It was surprisingly easy too. Some people are aware that it is hard for me to open up to people. It's always been hard. I don't want to weigh them down with my own issues. But since Varia & I are close in age and have had a lot of similar experiences and we have such close outlooks of everything it was just easy & fun. I wouldn't be up this late if it was boring. :P

We got to talking about relationships & how it seems that around here, in Utah, people seem really juvenile when it comes to being in a relationship or even a friendship. That people take it at face value. "Today's" friends. They don't really think about staying friends with someone or focusing full on to a relationship because they just want it in the here & now. Which now that I think about it, maybe that's why everyone out here had gotten married so young. I mean obviously they are focused, committed to a relationship but they commit to it without knowing if that's truly what they want or not. They want to get married, start a family, so they do. But they take what's right in front of them, without thinking about it. They want it so they get it. They don't take the time to explore themselves, find out who they really are. They just become a Mr. or Mrs. That bothers me.

I'm not saying that they shouldn't get married. If they have found that someone they want to spend the rest of their lives with by all means, go for it. I just feel like they haven't really experienced being a young adult when they all get married at the age of 18-21. Don't they miss it? Being able to do what you want when you want? Not having to make sure schedules correspond or just being spontaneous about a vacation or road trip?
I don't just randomly decide to get in m car and go on a road trip either, but I know I could if I wanted to and I like knowing I have that freedom. I'm not saying I don't want to get married either. I do. But I want it to be open. To be spontaneous, fun, random. 

Can't say that this post was exactly headed in the marriage direction. :P But that's how it went. I guess I just wanted to get this out there. Not that I haven't said it all before. But that's what was on my mind tonight so that's what was written. Gotta love the randomness right?!

Anyways. I'm glad Varia & I had the talk that we did. It was good to find out that we share the same beliefs & opinions on alot of different views. That was the main point of this post. Even if that's not how it seems. :D

Dead tired. I'm off. Goodnight all.