all i want

I heard this song today. The chorus describes how I feel about you perfectly. Which in a way sucks. I don't want you to know, I don't want you to turn away from me.

I'm afraid to open up to you for fear that you will disappear. It's happened before. He was my best friend. I told him everything. Everything. And then one day it was over. I got left in the dark. It wasn't anything I had ever expected from him. I can't go through that again. Not with you. You mean so much to me. And I can't tell you that. I couldn't stand to see you walk away from me, so I keep you at a distance. I hate myself for it.

You're an amazing person. I know that. You just want to make things better. I should let you. But I'm just too scared. To let you in. I know you wish I would. Part of me wonders if it would change anything. Or would you still think of me the same way you do now. However that is. I don't even know.

I want to mean more to you. You probably mean too much to me already. I'm on uneven ground. I don't know where to go from here. Up, I guess. But it's hard when I'm okay with being down, because that means you're still here. If I move on, will it matter to you? Would you come with me?

I don't know why this bothering me so much. It's an every night occurrence. You ask why I'm always up so late? You. That's why.

I can't live without all I think about
All I want is you
You're all i dream about i can't live without
All I want is you

You're all I dream about
I just can't live without
When all I think about is you
And all I want is you