pre-christmas vacation

I am so excited to go home! One more day and then I'm back! While it's going to be below zero, I'm sure most of the time I will be there, I'm still stoked! It'll be great to see the family and to just be able to relax and not really have to worry about much!
I am however pretty nervous to get on a plane. I've never been on one so it'll be interesting. My biggest worry is that I will miss a flight or something and end up stranded somewhere. I'm sure everything will go alright I'm just a huge worry-wart.
So yeah. That's all I really wanted to say.
So until later!
Night*

not enough

Why is it that as human beings we stare at something so beyond amazing, something so incredibly good for us straight in the face and think that we need more? Need something different. Why would you vow to spend the rest of your life completely committed to someone and then just one day walk away from it? I hate that people go into marriage thinking if it doesn't work out they can just get a divorce. It's a hard thing to go through. Especially on kids. Granted my parents weren't married when I was born but even that was hard at sometimes. You don't know what you can say around what parent. What would set them off. Then there is always the thought that it was your fault. Kids always think that no matter how many times parents tell them it's not their fault. Is it any better that we tell kids that it's just because we "don't love each other anymore." What is that all about? I just don't understand why it's so common. It pisses me off. Especially when one person doesn't deserve it in the least bit.

completely incomplete

things are changing-I need to figure this out-yesterday we were laughin-today I'm left here-where has all the time gone-I don't want to believe it's over-it's not the end for you and I-do you remember, in december how we swore we'd never change?-I'm standing here asking- can we make it last somehow?-I don't want to leave this way-it hurts but I'm giving you my word-I hope you are happy like we were-there's something I can't quite explain-expect me to be calling you-are you okay when I'm not around?-I always needed time on my own-I need you there when I cry-I count the steps that you take-do you see how much I need you?-I miss you-tryin to be strong-not sure I remember how to-nothing feels right-I'm sick of this stress-I feel a fool-but you'll never see me now-I'm blaming you for everything-no more holding it in-hoping you might see it my way-I'm looking for the answers to why these questions never go away-wishing that I only had a choice-never looking back at this anymore-I'm so far away-goodbye to yesterday-don't even talk about the consequence-don't think about what's right or wrong or wrong or right-it's not enough to say that 'I miss you'-I'm holdin on your rope-off the ground-I just can't make a sound-you tell me that you need me-didn't think I'd turn around and say-I'm afraid it's too late to apologize-deep inside it was a rush-what a rush-it's just too much- why do I keep running from the truth-am I crazy or falling in love?-I try and try to walk away-is there more?-it's a chance we gotta take-are you holding back like I know you do-I just got to know-can we talk-what went wrong?-don't pretend you don't know-this is me, I'm unchageable-did you lie from the start?-it was you and me against the world-was it something that I did-what made me unbeautiful?-what's done is done-carry on-I know that's true-we were still untouchable-you promised me forever more-we're much better-I remember when we used to laugh about nothing at all-forget them all-we will stand together and never fall-anywhere but here as long as we'd forget our lives-those nights were ours-those nights kept me alive-through all the hard times in my life-if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine-I'd still have you-this is the only place for me-nothing can come between us-I'll be standing with you-no one could ever take that away-nothing is stronger-that's what you get when you let you're heart win-oh the possiblities-I'm sure you've heard-it'll all get better in time-I'm letting go of all I've held on to-completely incomplete

hell week (& more)

Not only is it finals week...which is stressful enough by itself...it is also the busiest week of the shipping season.
The week before Christmas.
I work everyday except Tuesday this week and needless to say, I'm not looking forward to it. While the money is much needed, it's going to be dreadful, hence the title.
However...this week may be the worst, next week I am on my way home and that is a very pleasing thought. I can't wait to see all my family and just sit back and relax around some of the best company anyone could ask for.

So Jess, Kali, Amanda and I all went out to dinner at TGIFridays the other night. While I appreciated the offer and didn't really have that bad of a time, I found myself thinking about how great a difference there is between what I feel is important in life and what these eighteen year old girls think is important.
While they sat around and talked about how this girl said this one thing that made this other girl mad, I found it funny. While I will admit that I too once thought minimal things were important, I guess I just felt old. I think about how these girls think all this drama and whatnot is so important right now, in the big picture it is so insignificant. I thought about how much I really have grown in the past few years. In high school, I was worried about college and everything but mainly I thought about what my friends and I were going to be doing the upcoming weekend. Once I hit college I was more "focused" (I put that in quotes for a reason) on getting through classes and getting on with my career. Well while I moved to Utah to get an education in a subject that I was truly interested in, it was something new and a more life changing, "find myself" type move, what was once important had no relevance. Yeah I still wondered what I was going to do that weekend but it was more in the aspect of "how am I going to make this work?" I like to think that these past few years really have been kind of a defining point for me. I just thought it was interesting to see these girls in the stage I was just a few years back and how I know that these trivial things now will have next to no importance. I hope they can look back in a couple years and laugh at themselves and their crazy mind set as I am now with my own past.

the issue of marriage

I was told the other day that I should get married...oddly enough, not by my boss. :D

My point is that I feel the pressure to get married so strong living here in Utah, but I'm pretty sure there is a process that leads to marriage; meet a guy, get to know each other, become friends, then (if it's right), marriage. But so far nothing has happened. Not that I'm really worried about it...I personally am not ready to get married. There are too many things I want to do before I get married. But I don't know it just surprises me I guess. It also surprises me that there are so many people around here that are married. Now I'm not saying it's a bad thing...I just think that the pressure here is so crazy that kids just go out and get married without thinking about what they really want to do with their lives first. I don't know if that makes any sense but that's just my thoughts.

a quick one

So next week is the last week of school and then it's finals. I'm pretty excited to be done with this semester. It's surprising though...how fast it's gone by. But what can ya do?

I have eighteen days till I am on a plane headed to good ole South Dakota! I'm really stoked about that! I miss home...okay well maybe not really South Dakota but I'm excited to see my fam and friends! Plus a much needed break from work and school.

Oh...my roomies and I made stockings last night! They're pretty sweet I'm not gonna lie! We were all just chillin in my room til about 1 am just talkin and hangin out. It was good to just be able to chill. Sad part is that's about the only time we ever all have to hang out...but it's all good! We still have fun. And yes my roomies still need to work on cleaning up after themselves but they aren't bad girls...just very messy...everyone has thier flaws right?!?! Anywho.

Well just thought I'd put up a post since it's been awhile.
Until later!
*NiGhT*

{late night blogger}

I'm not going to NYC...I'm kind of down about it but it's okay...I don't really have the money for it so I guess it's just not my time to go. I'll live. Don't worry.

I have a 5 page paper due tomorrow by 2:30 for interior design. My topic is Feng Shui. I've learned some interesting things...however...I hate research papers, hence the procrastination. Oh well. Life goes on.

I start my photography classes next semester! I'm pretty stoked about it. It should be fun. I can't wait!

Just thought I'd throw down some words tonight. Simple, quick and to the point.

I'm out. Night.*

*untitled*

So I saw this poster in the GT building the other week that is allowing AVC majors a trip to NYC for $750! I would absolutely love to go...the issue is the deadline is tomorrow and i'm not sure if I will be able to get to the office to get and application. Plus I'm not sure if I have to have the $750 by tomorrow too...if that's the case then I'm not going...I would love to but I'm not going to get my hopes up.

So yeah. I went up to American Fork Canyon the other day and just took some pics. It was pretty fun...It was kind of the wrong time of day for pictures though...at least in my opinion...but I figured I'd throw some on here anyways.

since I've been gone...

It has been so long since I have posted...wow...all the things to throw out there. I'm just going to jump into it.

So lets see, My trip home was the last time I wrote...so when I came back I had to move...it was a bit worrisome but I completely lucked out! I have some of the best roommates!! there are so amazing and so fun to be around.

Kali, KimberLee & I

Jessie, Kami & I

So yeah! They are amazing and so much fun!

I finally got up the guts to ask this amazing guy to hang out and to my surprise he said yes! We're not by any means serious but he's a sweet guy and I'm glad I grew some and overcame my self doubt! :D

My car had more problems so I took it back to the dealership who then took it to his mechanic who then kept it for a month and a half who then finally gave it back to me and then I find out it's still not fixed....it's seriously been the most frustrating thing I have had to deal with but hey, what doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger right?!?! So I'm tryin to hold strong through this struggle and hopefully it'll work out.

I guess I have a few more personal struggles that are taking a toll on me but again I'm just trying to push through and hold strong and make the best out of what I have in front of me.

With life being so frustrating and full of trials I get homesick more and more. Then of course there is the whole situation that my brother is in S.C. for basic training and when I really need a laugh and just some straight support from my big bro I can't get it. That's really hard for me right now. I can't call him whenever I want b/c he can't take phone calls and it just blows. But I do get to write him letters which is good.

So yeah...let's see...what else? honestly I really don't think there is much else. I lead such a boring life! haha...but it's a good one so I guess I can't complain to much!

Oh!! wait a minute! Wow I can't believe I forgot about this....about a month ago now (which kind of sucks but whatever) I ran into....wait for it...MASON! it was the craziest thing! I honestly never thought I would see that kid again! it had been four years since I last heard from him! but yeah! that was so crazy! And of course being Mason the first thing he does is ask about my family and how they are all doing. Such a Mason thing! haha but anyays.

So I guess that's all I really have. It's quick recap of the last what few months but it'll have to do! Well I'm off for now!

my trip HOME

So my trip back home came and went uneventfully....which is just the way I wanted it! :D But I'll shell out some details just because I can.

I headed out of Provo at midnight Friday morning...I knew it was going to be rough so I attempted to sleep for a few hours before...I'm not really sure how much sleep I got but I figured it was enough, plus I was pretty stoked just to be heading back so I wasn't to worried. In case anyone wants to know...Wyoming has got to be the absolute worst state to drive through. It's so incredibly boring, and trust me, dark nights, rain, and not being able to see anything doesn't make it any better! I stopped to sleep for an hour somewhere in between Rawlins and Casper...it was needed...plus I woke up to a beautiful morning!
I got back into the wonderful state of South Dakota around 10 o'clock Friday morning. Familiar roads make travel so much easier. I stopped in Murdo to surprise my little sister and brother and to get my car checked out. My sister screamed, my brother just looked at me and smiled and my car is still not fixed. :P It was wonderful!! After spending a few hours there I went to Pierre to see Lee & Ally. Lee went off to a movie with her boyfriend Patrick for his birthday so Ally and I went to the Legion & the Longbranch. At roughly 10:30 that evening I had the brilliant idea to leave Pierre and head to Aberdeen, very stupid on my part. I stopped three times to sleep. The drive only takes 2 1/2 hours....

Anywho I got to Aberdeen where I was greeted with a wide-awake worried mother and I very frantically happy dog. Good to be home! I crashed. The next morning I stumbled out of bed and into another wonderfully busy day. I took my car in to get re-flashed, still didn't fix it but I'll get there. Went over and surprised my sister-in-law and my nephew. It was sooooo good to see them both! oh and of course my brother, he was the whole reason why I went home!!! :D anywho. After that I went over to see my grandparents. They can still run circles around me that's for sure. Then again I was running on very little sleep...but still! :) A quick trip back to the house and then on to visit friends!

It was great to see Mandy and be able to just chill for a bit. But of course we couldn't just sit around and do nothing so what did we do?? We hit up Walmart of course! (for any of you who have been to Aberdeen, you know there is nothing to do but Walmart) After that little extravaganza we headed back to my house for a small get together. The grandparents, aunt Pam, Abby & Ben were back from Ecuador, Maren & Jack, Jory, Nessa, & DK, mom, Mandy and myself all had grill out! It was delicious! After a few quick words and a lot of loud screams from the kids we all dispersed for the evening. Jory, Mandy & I hit up Walmart (again but this time with meaning) and then Mans and I went and watched a movie. After a long and glorious day back in A-town, I crashed. :D


But up again early the next morning for church. It was good to be back on familiar ground when it comes to that area. And of course even better to see Adele!! She & I went out for lunch (not a good idea but we got over it) and it was great to just catch up with her!

Afterwards, I went back and chilled with Mans where we decided to go to the park and take pics (only because we were sick of Walmart! :P)

Then it was back home for family time! Just goofing around with Jory and Nessa and DK was just what I needed!! A sad goodbye from my brother (it'll be a year before I get to see him again). Another day gone.

Monday morning I set out for Pierre to hang with Leti and to have lunch with Nickie & Heather. Chinese never tasted so good! Watched the Dark Knight with my best friend & then back to Murdo for some sleep.

Tuesday was pretty slack. Hung around Murdo and just relaxed. Once more another day gone.

Wednesday...travel time. The drive back didn't seem nearly as long as the drive to, until I hit road construction...it's summer...what could I expect?!?! But the night finally came in and I was back in Provo. This is home too.

So that's a recap of my week back home. To, From, and everything in between!

Until later! Goodnight!

taking a breath

I have almost got everything worked out. I have a storage unit (still not sure how I'm going to get all my stuff there but that's another story). I'm have done my part as far as financial aid goes, I'm just waiting for the school to review it all. My car will be fixed...again...in a few days and then I plan on going and getting my money back from the guy who fixed it in the first place...that'll be fun...I don't really want to yell at the guy but I might have to...guess I better get my game face on! :D


I'm headed back to good ole SD for roughly a week...2 days in which are purely for travel. however...I am really looking forward to seeing my family and friends. It's been over 4 months since I've seen most of them...longer for some of my friends...and it'll be good to see some familiar faces. The whole purpose of this trip was to surprise my older brother Jory. He ships out for basic training for the National Guard in Sept to SC and if I wouldn't go home before school starts the next time I see him it would have been a year and a half...and that's just too long for me!! so.......anyways....my plan was to surprise him and just show up at his house...but unfortunately I had to let him know I was coming or else he would have had to work. However I still get to surprise my little brother and sister and grandparents and sister-in-law so it'll still be fun! :DSchool starts in 22 days...I'm getting excited. I've always liked school though and now that I am actually going into a field of study that I enjoy, it'll be even better!



Well I'm going to call it a night.



"Smile. You never know who may notice."

things

This is simple...I'm super frustrated these days. I have so much that I need to get done and so many things that I worry about. I was given financial aid but it's not enough so I have to apply for more and it's dangerously close to school starting so that's freaking me out. Then there is having to move, I need to find an affordable storage unit, and figure out how I'm going to get all my stuff there, and then there is actually meeting all my new roommates, it's going to be interesting but I am looking forward to it. Then there is the issue of my car, I had to pay $200 to get it fixed and the wrong type of part was put in...that's a whole other frustration in itself. so yeah. I still love it here...it's gorgeous and it's something new. It's just that nothing has gone the way I thought it would since I've been here. Just another trial to push through I guess.

Moving on.

I went to a singels ward today. It was interesting. Church is another issue in my life I'm trying to figure out. I wasn't raised in the church. I was baptized in September of 04. I'm not saying that I don't believe in the church and it's teachings. Around here the churches are different than the ones back home. They are way more serious about everything. Basically everyone was raised in the church and personally I feel like I don't add up. I don't know nearly as much as I should, and being around here where everyone else knows so much I feel inadequate by comparrison. It's tough for me right now.

So I have a lot to think about and figure out. I'm only 21...I'm pretty sure I'm not supposed to have my entire life planned out...but it would be nice if some things would just go smooth.

Goodnight.

time takes us

a simple memory-one word, one glance-that's all it takes, to remember the laughs, the smiles, the joy-everything was good, we had it easy-but we've grown older, wiser, learning from our mistakes-knowing that through it all, we'd always have each other.

(to all those who have stuck up for me and for showing me that life is worth it)

push through

push through
no more pain
let it go
no longer the one
to blame
from this moment
looking forward
leave the past
give tomorrow a chance
it only takes one

confusion

happiness comes with a price

living in the moment

giving your all

hoping it's enough

there is truth in lies

what you didn't say

feeling so alone

I never thought it'd be so hard

I try to face it

days of lonely

pretending outside

only hurts more inside

how am I gonna make it

I hate reality

it's over

can you die for a love lost

it hurts again

I can't forget

the tears fall

how am I supposed to breathe

losing you

I wish I could make you understand

but how

this one is for (you)

you're looking for a thrill-but you've done it all-go home-not America-everybody hears-you might lose yourself-even that gets old-put you're blue jeans back on-so long-you can be anything you want-when you grow up-one day I'll leave you-this was never the way I planned-it's not what I'm used to-just to try it-it felt so wrong-it felt so right-it doesn't matter-just human nature-my head gets so confused-hard to obey-it's innocent-I'm lyin' here-what have you done-I can run-I swear-you keep makin' me ill-I haven't moved-maybe I should get some help-I think I'll get out of here-the middle of nowhere-now that you're out of my life-you thought I'd be sad-but I'm livin-I'm better than that-I can sit and watch-like it that way-this is as good as it gets-I had alot to say-was thinkin'-I miss you-things weren't the same-it makes me wanna die-I'm sorry-this time-blame turns to shame-it never comes out right-sleepless nights-it's never to late to make it right-I can't take it back-everything that I wanted-come back to me-never let go-lies have covered all of our smiles-can you see-can you cope when it runs right through you-my heart it is broken-don't know how much time has passed-no one ever tells you-sitting all alone-you don't expect and easy answer-what you're staring at is me-she never was the best-seems like the world was crashing-don't worry-I hope you'll let it burn-to your heart-live with no regrets-shouldn't hold you back-no one can see you shinin'-no one can stop you-if you seek then you shall find-I hold on-no mater what you say-sooner or later I get what I'm askin' for-I've got to be strong-live every second-still the memory of you-it hurt enough-don't ever look back-restless soul-the pieces fall-hardly recognize myself at all-I'm only me when I'm with you-sometimes we don't say a thing-no matter what I do-it drives me crazy half the time-tryin' to figure out what is and is not true-all around me-I clearly see-hard to trust-we stand alone-the sun will fade-still I run-hard to walk this path-it's what you didn't say-told me I'd get hurt-I screamed out loud-never thought it'd be so hard-you're the one I can't forget-God, I wish you could hold me-I pretend I'm okay-but it aches inside-just getting by-tell me how I'm gonna make it-I'm running in slow motion-can you die from heartache-it hurts again-through the seven days-a lot of life before me-I hope you get the chance-I became a friend a friend wouldn't like to have-what I would do if I could do it all over again-I threw it all away-can I not like you for awhile-I can't stay mad at you for too long-I can't just let you go-I never thought I'd need you there-when you walked away-do you see- I miss you-

for the one I trust

you had a tone-like a protective older brother kind of thing-it threw me off-made me question-but I figured I knew what was right-I didn't-I should have listened-you are the one I trust-the one I know will always be there-I had let things go-moved on-you had-why shouldn't I?-I think it surprised you-as much as it surprised me-maybe more-you only wanted what was best for me-and I only wanted what was best for you-we both might be wrong-but you said not to think to much into it-it's me-I did-but I got over it-and then you came back-a rebuttal that I never would have imagined-what now?-we go on-like we always do-we'll make it-I have no doubts.

letting you go

the long talks
the ease of quiet understanding
from day one
we clicked
simple conversations
to the true meaning of life
it's always comfortable
we can go months without
and it comes back
second nature
I've watched
listened
given advice
seen you hurt
held grudges against
those who took you for granted
I've seen you happy
wished you the best
but I never thought
it'd be so hard to let you go

now & always

glances unnoticed

simple smiles

perfect understanding

several envelopes,

stamps & pages

it's all written

never in stone

you know

I appreciate

forever & ever

now & always

up's & down's

The end of March 2008 I relocated to Provo. between 13 & 16 hours away from family & friends (depending). it was a scary, exciting & bold move on my part. the true reasons for the move are known among a select few, however I believe it was needed. I wanted to experience something other than South Dakota, something different that what I was born & raised in. understandable I think.

It's been tough since day one. Apartments not ready for move in or what was signed for. not having eaten anything for 12 or so hours took it's toll in form of passing out. living without furniture made for aching mornings. same type of job but being run differently, I had to adjust, adapt. missing my boy's first birthday was next to painful.
Things started looking up. a friend from four years before was passing through, gave me someone to hang out with, something to do besides work. birthday calls & unexpected gifts & parties. the job was getting easier. good days.
Unfortunate problems. school financial aid was at a stand still. I had been messing up at work. then the car stalls...literally. dead transmission. not knowing anyone. not knowing what to do. a breakdown in every sense of the term. long walks, my only mode of transportation.
Willingness to help made things go easier. long searches. another dealership turned down. losing hope, faith. bad days.
Looking up again. a vehicle had been found. the job had become easier & not as frustrating again. friends (from work at least) had been made. the long walks were only one way. the vehicle was bought. plans were made for visits. set in stone.

I just wanted a brief of life in Utah so far. it's been good, it's been bad, it's been fun, it's been boring. there is one fact that stands above all the others...it's absolutely beautiful. don't get me wrong, I appreciate the beauty of SD as well but it's a different kind of beauty here. amazing.

.::just to write::.

-softly we tremble-picture perfect-I'm not satisfied-am I supposed to be happy-you said that you would die for me-lost in our game-it comes with a price-you must live for me too-hands beg me to stay-your eyes say that you hate-doubt in your faith-I won't be the one-alone with all your secrets-don't lie-promise me the sky-chill me to the bone-what you don't take-not right today-laughs every time I fall-I can't add up to what you can-time to sink or swim-can't stop-the sun goes down-I feel that I've betrayed-looking over my back-I see what it is that's killing me-hard to trust-I can't believe-realize we are one-how I know-what will always live in me-hard to know which way to go-will it ever change-I know our day will come-open your eyes-I'll wait-make me feel better-why'd you have to go-part of me is dying-a broken heart-I dream-to pick up the pieces-I don't know you-tell me the truth-I love you-did you ever love me-swear to miss you-set me free-a chance to fix mistakes-space for thinking-a pitch black sky-don't waste this chance-it's only us-the last time-things may not always make sense-you got me-I know it's confusing-we did not plan it to be this way-everything happens for a reason-we don't know why-I'd do anything for you-I look around me-going through the motions-life won't wait-find the future-running circles-busy making your excuses-not gonna waste another moment-take what's mine-every wasted day becomes a wasted chance-I guess it's up to you-let me know-you are the only one that needs to know-we live such fragile lives-we survive-thoughts I can't deny-the memories shaking apart-as they go by-looking ahead-away from the streets we knew-days passed us by-tears run down my face-can't replace-this world turns cold-I can be the one-stand up with you-seasons are changing-through it all-you're my true love-please don't throw that away-tell me you'll stay-I will never let you fall-I've been waiting-tried to be perfect-everything you ever wanted-it's been so long-used to wait up-I fell to pieces-it's not my fault-I need you-to believe you-to be honest-left with the 'what-if's'-it's such a shame-no one really saw-promised everything-a lot like you-so much potential-looking for someone to love-feeling so faithless-walking in your shoes-so much more aware-holding to tightly-falling apart-another mistake-more than I can take-I may end of failing-all I want to do-tired of being what you want me to be-dreams are shattered-we held so dear-I'm not okay-wasting away-so far nothing's been the same-no matter what they say-how did things change-everything was fine-we started at zero-now we're all out-seems like just yesterday-I'm right where I belong-on a roller coaster ride-I'm looking at you-sitting all alone-how do you feel-an easy answer-remember what you're staring at-so much to question-it's just different-how much time has passed-always stumbling-look at me-never knew-who'd have thought-all the right breaks-I'm livin' my life-not tryin to be somebody else-won't ever let you down-don't let your dreams get too far out of sight-I'm lying here-what have you done-you left me-run as fast as I can-to the middle of my frustrated fears-I'll get out of here-I've got to say something-take back what's yours-have some respect-it gets tense-do you see-it's ironic-when the rich wage war it's the poor who die-a sky so blue-the ocean opens up-with hands held high-I wonder what my life's going to mean-

nicole's favorite

I only have 2 words: "double milla".

:D :D :D

...I am...

March 8, 2008

I am always paranoid when reversing a vehicle
I don't like expensive chocolate
I talk about how bad it is to judge people you don't know but I do it too
I'm usually always cold & I don't like it
I don't like making my bed
I love to be barefoot
I can't go a day without listening to music
I'm gullible
I worry about what my friends think of me
It bothers me how the world relies so much on money & that according to a lot of society the more you have the better you are
I scare easily
I believe everything happens for a reason even though I rarely know what that reason is
I love writing
I don't have the same sense of humor as most
I'm pretty sentimental

April 4, 2008

I hate when people tell me things that they don't mean
I don't like living without furniture
If there is still daylight I will (most-likely) always have the blinds open
I'm easily annoyed, sometimes I show it sometimes I don't
I believe that honesty really is the best policy
I don't always like change but I understand it's inevitable
I appreciate Mother Nature's beauty
I'm shy when it comes to meeting new people
I like to re-write notes so they are neat
I like knowing the time
I'm afraid I'm not going to be a good mother
I absolutely love photography

April 20, 2008

I love having one day off a week to do absolutely nothing
I want to visit Ireland
I fear the day I lose one of my parents or siblings
I love random road trips (this one's for you J.Gurr)
I don't like confrontation
There are things in my life I wish I could take back but I know they have made me who I am today
I really don't like bugs

April 27, 2008

I am a hopeless romantic
I don't like shopping when there are a lot of people
If I had to choose between working in a group or working by myself, I would rather work by myself

May 18, 2008

I love when friends surprise me
Sometimes I over-think things
I'm a pretty sarcastic person (Noel understands)
I want to raise my children on LDS values
I would love to travel
I am not book-smart
I have random mood-swings

May 19, 2008

I'm a day-dreamer
In a way, I'm a pack rat
I try to be optimistic but it doesn't always work out
I love to just drive around & listen to music
Blue, white & black are my favorite colors
I love when it rains

May 29, 2008

I would love to have my own photography studio
I don't like being treated like I'm stupid
I enjoy the simple things
I like writing letters even though I rarely actually write them
I appreciate things more when I have to work for them
The only time I take naps are when I'm sick or really really bored

June 25, 2008

I can honestly say that I have the best of friends anyone could ever ask for
I've learned that we rely on material things way too much
I have never had the desire to re-live high school
Whoever said 20's are the best days of one's life never lived through them...struggling through college loans, rent, car payments & the desire to prove to everyone (including yourself) that you can make it on your own isn't exactly easy

June 29, 2008

I try to live one day at a time
I don't like making plans too far in advance for fear that they will fall through
I believe that we should live with no regrets
I am more of a morning person
I can't make fried eggs
At times I think I trust people to easily
When I say I'm "fine" it usually means there is something weighing on my mind
I think my best physical feature are my hands & I have no idea why
I love to ski & would love to learn to snowboard
I don't consider myself much of an "outdoor" person but I do like being outdoors

August 14, 2008

I really don't like road construction
I need more than two hours of sleep to fully function
When I'm bored I usually always hit up Walmart
I've come to realize that humidity really is a killer
I love being completely & totally random with my brother
I wish I didn't rely on a vehicle

October 12, 2008

I don't like confrontation
I try to be patient
I don't like to accept help from others
I worry about things that are so little & insignificant in the long run

December 22, 2008

I love to text message
My ipod is my savior
I like argyle and I don't really know why
I don't like wearing heels
I love reading
I like to cuddle
I can't survive the day without milk
I hate living paycheck to paycheck

September 9, 2009

I hate goodbyes
I really don't like people most days
I love football movies
I think sleeping next to someone is much better than sleeping alone
I think whoever invented flip-flops deserves a medal
I will ALWAYS choose Coke over Pepsi
I hate doing dishes
I have a really hard time having money & not spending it

November 26, 2009

I don't like intruding on other peoples' family holidays (even when I'm invited)
I really wish I could draw
I've decided I will never go shopping on Black Friday--no matter how good the sales are
I don't like using text/IM talk (ie: wut up w/u?--basically all the abbreviations--it's annoying)
I don't like gold jewelry
I wish I could hide my emotions better
I think my hands are my best physical feature
I have a ahard time ccepting compliments
I'm not an outgoing person