new look--yes or no

So obviously I have put a bit of a new look to my blog. I haven't really decided if I like it or not...but for now it's different & that's what I like. I plan on trying to do a few other things different on it but it's gonna take some time since I'm kinda going into this blind. But we'll see how it goes. Hopefully I can get it the way I like it this weekend. :D

Well, it's off to work. Yippee.

stupid weather

I'm really sick of all this rainy, dreary weather. Where's all the sunshine & cloudless days we had last week?!?! I'm ready for summer!! I don't know about anybody else but having snow...yes, I said snow...in the end of April beginning of May is a little beyond ridiculous if you ask me. :P Just wanted to complain about the weather.

updating?

I have decided my blog is just a little to boring for my liking...so with the help of my friend and maybe a little creative doing on my part, I'm going to try & completely revamp my blog this weekend. As for now...it's just going to stay boring boring boring. So we'll see how it all goes later. *fingers crossed*

getting your money's worth

Not so easy to do these days.

I'm all about cheap...& it's even better if it's cheap and it's good quality. I spent $4.50 on eyeliner today and it is crap. I normally buy this cheap-o brand that's $2.50, but Walmart was out of that kind so I bought a better brand for a couple dollars more. And it's a worse product. Why would I pay more for a name brand product that doesn't work nearly as well as the off brand product? Point in case, I wouldn't (not normally) nor will I ever do it again. It was a waste of money since I will not use it and end up buying another kind to replace the one I just bought. Lame.

Skype & NCIS (all-in-all a good day)

I would just like to say that I ♥ Skype. :D
It's fun & free and I love that I can talk to people (mainly it's just my mom & my brother) and be able to see them. Granted my web cam goes out occasionally but it still works...so I can't complain...too much. Plus we tested out playing some games on Skype tonight...it was fun. Jory & I played Dominoes first (which I won!!) then we had Sam join in and we all played Bingo (which Sam won both games :D). So all in all it was great!

I would also like to let everyone know just how much I enjoy the show NCIS. It's full of sarcasm and hott men so what's not to love?!?! Tuesday nights at 7, no matter how bad of a day I may have had (which today was pretty darn good so it just adds to the greatness) it always brightens my day with humor. ♥ it :D

Just because, I would like to point out that whoever named Chicago the "windy city" has never been elsewhere. It's RIDICULOUSLY windy here right now...it sounds like this crap hole of an apartment complex I live in may possibly be blown over. I'm just sayin...it's nuts.

It's late again...& I'm tired...so goodnight. :D

got over it

Turned out to be easier than I origanlly thought (not being mad you that is).

I was still a little mad when I pulled up to Applebee's. You pulled up a minute later and I put on a simple smile. You stepped out of your car--looked me in the eye & smiled. I was over it in that one second. I walked up to you, looked up (like I always have to because you are so much taller than I am :D), & said hi. You said hi back & pulled me into a bear hug & lifted me off the ground. How can I stay mad at you after that?!?! :D It was still only a couple of hours...but it was a good couple of hours! So I thank you.

Saw John aka the BEST Applebee's manager ever, today! I honestly had thought he had quit or something. I hadn't seen him in forever! And sure enough he remembered me--and of course Leti & Damian & of course Cody! He sat and talked with us for quite awhile--it was great! Made my day even better at that moment! :D haha!

Time for a work rant (which I shouldn't even have since I didn't work today):
No raise. Lame considering they have hired two new people and are losing 5 for the summer. If I don't have one on this first paycheck in May I'm gonna talk to the boss man again and see what the deal is. Granted I am still looking for another job because I hate mine so much, but it's all i have for right now, can't just quit, unfortunately. That's that.

I hate living paycheck to paycheck. It blows. I have $20 to last me two weeks...that's all I have after paying bills with this paycheck. Nothing but bills...no food, no gas, & having one of my bills be late...sad huh?!?!...just telling it how it is. It does suck, it is tough, but I'll get through it. :D I always do. :D

Next week...next week hopefully I'll get to go shooting. :D Too windy today...but the weather can't be bad for too much longer! :D I will win this one! Eventually!! :P

Probably write more later...because I have no life...as one of my roommates oh-so-kindly pointed out to me today! :P haha! Sad part--she's right! :D Oh well.

mid-day frustration

I'm frustrated! We make plans to do something & then you make up some lame ass excuse for not being able to do it, apologize, & then say you have plans with someone else. I'm getting beyond sick of all of it. I'm ready to give up. For good. But it's hard because you're my only friend down here...andI like hanging out with you. I'm just sick of getting my hopes up and being let down. Plus it sucks when you do decide we can hang out it's only for 2 or 3 hours, and while I appreciate the time anyways, it kind of seems like a waste, of your time & my emotions.

Now I'm trying to get myself in a good mood so I'm not so pissed when I see you...not gonna lie...this might not be easy. And if i'm in a bad mood then you're gonna be pissed because I'm pissed and well, we know how that goes.

I'm trying to just get past it all. I put in my two cents and you never replied. Ball's your court now my friend. I just wish you knew what you wanted...and was willing to go after it. Damn.

little problem

I received a wonderful computer from my wonderful brother. However it does have one minor flaw---

I stay up WAY to late messing around on it.

I can't blame the computer.
I can't blame my brother.
I blame no one but myself.

Lame.

Goodnight all.

doing what you love

Time for another random work story:

First off--at the UPS Store we have several postmen that come in and pick up mail...it's rarely the same one for more than a few days in a row...anyways...
The one that came in today, his name is Jaret and he's the nicest one.--He had our route when I first started and then was moved so we usually never see him anymore...usually once every 4 months or so...okay...moving on...
He of course asked how I was doing, if I was done with school yet, etc. I told him that I haven't been in school for about a year and a half now (please don't judge me...financial circumstances have temporarily delayed my schooling) but that I was trying to get into the Art Institute in SLC. He proceeded to ask me what type of art I would be pursuing. I told him I would be going for photography. Of course that made him raise his eyebrows (like it does every time I tell people that's what I will be going to school for). He asked why (go figure) and I told him because I love it and why not make a career doing what I love? He said that was wise. That very few people do what they love for a living but those who do have such a better outlook on life and are generally just happier people. Smart man.

My point is that just because society tells us to go to college, get a degree and spend the rest of our lives making money to support ourselves, and our families if we have them, why just settle for something that brings in money but not be happy with it?
I will admit that I don't love my current job (as most people know). However, I plan on going back to school soon and pursue the career that will really make me happy.

Why doesn't everybody else do the same?

it could be worse

I was working today and got this massive sob story (which happens regularly), and while by the sound of things they got themselves into the mess, they can't blame anyone else, but they do. However, I was thinking about how often I complain about things in my life and how tough it's been for me at times and I stopped short and just thought "well, I guess it could be worse."

The biggest issue I have about listening to others problems is that it seems like they have all this hate towards the people that supposedly got them into the mess, when really it's their own fault. And to be frank that actually kind of pisses me off. You don't have anyone to blame but yourself, so stop. Yes it sucks, I'm not saying it doesn't, but you got yourself in it, so get yourself out. Yes, it will take time and it may possibly even require you to ask for help, but it can be done. So work on it.

As for me and my situations...I choose to do what I'm doing now and I know it's been hard and it will continue to be hard, but it was my decision, I stand by that decision and I know that if I want something I have to go after it. So I will. I also understand that things are not always going to go the way I want them to, and while yes I may sulk over it for awhile, I will get over it and move on. I have to. If I don't I'd be stuck in one position, never moving forward and always looking back.

it's been quite some time

My last post was over a year ago :S ...not having access to a computer lead to that little problem. Well now that my brother oh-so-kindly gave me a computer (even though the reason for me getting it is pretty lame--more on that subject later), I am planning on keeping this updated now...so over the next few day's I will most likely have a bunch of random posts with stuff from this past year...or maybe I'll just start from now...we'll see :D anyways...I'm looking forward to getting this all started again.

Some use blogs as a journal, some use it to keep family & friends updated on their lives, while others use it just to let out their artistic side---I plan on using this blog for all of that...so it's gonna be a crazy mess of this & that for everyone to enjoy! :D