things

This is simple...I'm super frustrated these days. I have so much that I need to get done and so many things that I worry about. I was given financial aid but it's not enough so I have to apply for more and it's dangerously close to school starting so that's freaking me out. Then there is having to move, I need to find an affordable storage unit, and figure out how I'm going to get all my stuff there, and then there is actually meeting all my new roommates, it's going to be interesting but I am looking forward to it. Then there is the issue of my car, I had to pay $200 to get it fixed and the wrong type of part was put in...that's a whole other frustration in itself. so yeah. I still love it here...it's gorgeous and it's something new. It's just that nothing has gone the way I thought it would since I've been here. Just another trial to push through I guess.

Moving on.

I went to a singels ward today. It was interesting. Church is another issue in my life I'm trying to figure out. I wasn't raised in the church. I was baptized in September of 04. I'm not saying that I don't believe in the church and it's teachings. Around here the churches are different than the ones back home. They are way more serious about everything. Basically everyone was raised in the church and personally I feel like I don't add up. I don't know nearly as much as I should, and being around here where everyone else knows so much I feel inadequate by comparrison. It's tough for me right now.

So I have a lot to think about and figure out. I'm only 21...I'm pretty sure I'm not supposed to have my entire life planned out...but it would be nice if some things would just go smooth.

Goodnight.